My one true fear now is loosing my friends. I've already lost the other thing thats important to me. Not much else to take away. It seems theyll be leaving me soon. No, thats not the right choice of words. I might be forced to leave them. I look around them, and i see that the're succeding, they go to college, they have steady jobs. While i dont even have my drivers liscense yet. It seems like I'm not moving. That I'm doomed to be lost in the sands of time. If i stay here that is. I have that choice, to leave this place, my home town, and live with family in Florida. If I go there, maybe this future wont be so bad. Maybe I'll go somewhere with this life. However, if i leave, my friends and i may never see eachother again. We may never jsut sit there and go on about radom things, we may never play Halo together again, we may never again try to plan an evening, but just end up at a Waffle House at 2 am.

I hold my friends closer then anyhting. I can safely say I wouldnt be here without them. Bryan, always level headed and ready to lend a hand. Chris, always unique and following his own path. Marcus, as close to me as my own brother. Joi, she always knows when somethings wrong. Richard, reckless, but true to his word. Cliff, timid but no one better to help you in school. Jason, always random and ready to bring a smile to anyones face. Brison, smart and always ready to goof off with me. Nathan, gives the advisor advice. James, wise beyond his years. These are the people i hold close to me. They have helped me in my time of need, and i can safely say i would help them, no matter what the trouble.

 

To my friends now, the friends that have gone, and the friends that will be. May we never forget eachother.

Love hurts. Its a common thing foreveryone, yet unique for each of us. Why does it hurt? Becuase your bound to be hurt becuase of it. Love is never an exact course. Always a blind leap from which you might not recover for some time once you land. But recover you do, and you face a choice: Do you leap again? Or do you give up. I was broken time and time again. Each time i feel a bit more empty inside. Each time everything seemd a bit darker. But I leaped again. My most recent and i might add 1st relationship was nothing but a long fall. My final fall. That final blow that literally tears a heart in two. I will leap for no one else. There is no point for no one will leap for me. I've been played too many times. Been betrayed too many times. Been broken too many times. Ive fallen too many times. So i give up. I just wait.