FEELING THE PAIN.
LYING DOWN HERE ON MY BED THINKING "WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF??".TEARS FALLING FROM MY FACE THINKING"WHY AM I MAKING MY HUSBAND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME??"AM I THINKING OK?AND IM SMOKING A BIT TOO MUCH I DONT KNOW?? THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING OF MY STORY.
GET OUT OF THE BED AND WIPE OFF THE TEARS ,I CALM MYSELF DOWN AND WALK OUT THE ROOM LIKE NOTHING NEVER HAPPEND."HEY HONEY"I SAY GIVING JOHN A KISS.JOHN PUSHED ME AWAY."WHAT WAS THAT FOR IM GIVING U A KISS U NOT GANNA TAKE IT??"I SAID TO HIM."NO! CAUSE MY GODDAM FOOD AINT READY YET WHAT U TAKE ME AS HOW THE HELL AM I SUPOSE TO GO TO WORK WITH OUT ANY BREAKFAST??"HE YELLED IN MY EAR." OH IM SORRY"I SAID ,DIDNT WANNA MAKE HIM ANYMORE MAD.
WALK OVER TO THE STOVE FIND OUT DIRTY DISHES EVERYWHERE WHEN I WASHED UP THE DISHES LAST NIGHT BEFORE WE WENT TO BED.MY ANGER CAME OUT."WHAT THE HELL IS THIS,DIRTY DISHES EVERYWHERE,DIDNT I WASH THEM UP LAST NIGHT BEFORE WE WENT TO BED?" I YELLED. JOHN LOOKED AT ME IN A NASTY WAY,I GOT FRIGHTEN. "YEA... AND SO WHAT ?" HE SAID."WHAT THE F**K , IM NOT THE PERSON WHO WASHES THE DISHES YOU ARE!" HE YELLED BACK. HE GOT UP AND WENT UP TO ME AND DRAGGED ME BY MY SHIRT AND SAID"LOOK HERE LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING, IM NOT THE GOD DAM MAID IN HERE OK, I WHERE THE DAM PANTS IN HERE NOT YOU.SO LET ME TELL U SOMETHING IF U EVER EVER EVER DISRESPECT ME LIKE THAT AGAIN YOUR GONE, IM TELLING YOU YOUR GONE!" HE SPITTED IN MY FACE. HE LET ME GOAND WENT BACK TO THE ROOM TO GET READY FOR WORK.
TEAR DRIFTED DOWN MY FACE. I HAD TO TAKE A WALK.I QUICKLY FINISHED UP THE DISHES AND PUT ON SOME CLOTHINGS TO GO FOR A WALK.AS I WALKED TOWARD THE PARK, I WAS A WHOLE BUNCH OF COUPLES CUDDLING UP TOGETHER KISSING AND ALL TYPES OF STUFF TOGETHER . I WISH THAT WAS ME AND JOHN,BUT NOPE HE WEAR THE DAMMIT PANTS IN THE HOUSE. I THOUGHT TO MYSELF" U NO WHAT IM JUST GONNA GO HOME AND SIT ON THE DAM COUCH LIKE HE DOES EVERY SINGLE DAY."
GETTING READY TO LEAVE THE PARK, MEET UP WITH ONE OF MY GIRLS"HEY TIFFANY!" I SAID" WHAT UP GIRL "SHE SAID BACK."HOW YOU DOING ,LONG TIME NO SEE ,SO HOWS YOU AND YOUR BOYFRIEND BEEN DOING?"SHE ASKED."UMM WELL IT ISNT WORKING OUT WELL MAN HES SO ABUSIVE,AND GIRL LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING .LAST NIGHT RIGHT , I WASHED UP ALL THE DISHES BEFORE WE WENT TO BED RIGHT. I WAKE UP AND IN THE SINK IS FULL WITH DISHES!!"I SAID"OH MY GOD FOR REAL?"SHE SAID "YUP GIRL TRUE STORY,AND HE LIKE SO WHAT AND I DONT CARE!BUT WHEN I GOT MAD AND I YELLED OUT I WASHED THE DISHES LAST NIGHT HE GOT UP AND DRAGGED ME BY MY CLOTHES AND SAID NOT TO DISRESPECT HIM AGAIN,GIRL IM SO SCARED I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO?"I SAID " WELL GIRL YOU NEED TO HANDLE YOUR OWN BUSINESS I GOT TO RUN GANAN BE LATE FOR WORK BYE GIRL!" TIFFANY SAID RUNNING OFF.
WALKING BACK TO THE HOUSE YELLING AND AND THIS NONSENCE ."WHY THE HELL IS MY WORK BOOTS SO I CAN LEAVE!!!" JOHN YELLED."CHECK IN THE SHOES CLOSET." I SAID."OH I FOUND THEM, OK IM LEAVING BYE." HE SAID GIVING ME A KISS." I LOVE YOU."HE SAID."YEA WAT EVER" I THOUGHT.
OK JUST THINKING TO MYSELF IM GANNA GO TAKE A NAP ITS ONLY FOR A WHILE.
BY THE TIME I GOT BACK UP JO HN IS BACK FROM WORK BY 10:00PM. I WAS PISSED OFF."AH YO WHERE MY DINNER AT??" HE YELLED OUT TAKING OFF HIM CLOTHES." SORRY I FORGOT TO I FELL ASLEEP." I SAID GETTING OFF THE COUCH."WELL HURRY UP MAN IM HUNGRY" JOHN SAID . I MADE SOME RIBS WITH WHITE RICE, TOOK A QUICK 45 MINS.10:45."THANK YOU MAN"JOHN SAID SNATCHING THE FOOD OUT MY HANDS."UMM YOUR WELCOME" I SAID. I DID NOT WANNA FEEL LIKE EATING SO I JUST SAT THERE WATCHING THE GAME WITH HIM.
"SO U KNOW ANYTHING BOUT' FOOT BALL ?"HE ASKED " NOPE" I RESPONDED BACK."OH OK WHAT EVER." HE SAID .MY ANGER CAME BACK WHY DO U ALWAYS DO THIS ,IM TIRED OF U !"I YELLED. HE TOOK ME IN THE ROOM IN THE DARK AND .............
WHAT DO YOU THINK HAPPEND???
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